I can relate. I lost my brother to suicide and after it happened all I could think about was ending it all, but I couldn’t imagine my mom having to do that again. It was so hard to understand the loss, but seeing her like that made me want to be stronger to support her. I can tell you that the people who love you will go through absolute heartbreak.
Aww. Thank you for replying! I’m so sorry to hear that your brother died by suicide. I know my mom would likely not want to continue because she tells me that she can’t carry on without me. It would be like ended both of our lives and I know this will get better, I just hope I can make it to the day it does.