Yesterday. (ignore picture)
TW: Self-Harm
Yesterday I found the pair of scissors I use to slash my wrists. I was doing really well, I hadn’t relapsed in a while. About a week, if I had to guess. My scars had mostly healed up by now. But I relapsed yesterday. I don’t know what it is about SH, because it hurts and it doesn’t make me feel much better. Maybe it’s because I enjoy watching the blood? I don’t know. Is there something wrong with me?
I just felt like venting here. My parents can absolutely never know about this and I don’t trust my therapist.
One Response
Hey Henry. I am not a professional and I don’t have any degrees for school or anything. This is just me hopefully sharing with you what I’ve heard from others. Emotional pain, the pain we feel inside. We can’t see it! we can sure feel it, but or brains are trying to pin point this real pain that we are feeling. So instead of taking your pain from maybe past trauma, and literally wearing it as a constant reminder for what we feel inside. We take that first step like you are doing and sharing what’s going on inside. If someone doesn’t listen then keep keep trying to share what you’re feeling inside. Get it out!! And you know. A side note. That pain that you’re putting on your body. You aren’t the only one that feels it. Everyone you love and that loves you is hurting when they see it. You are headed in the right path. Sharing is the first step. And the hardest but most rewarding step DO NOT GIVE UP!!!!