I first attempted suicide when I was fourteen years old and also began self-harming by cutting on myself. I’ve been in and out of the hospital since then. When I was 28 I had my most serious suicide attempt by standing in front of a train. I was hit head on, ran over, and dragged back to the station. By some miracle I survived. I spent months in the hospital. But I told myself that God spared my life so I could help anyone else who is ever feeling like ending their life. After that I went to Napa State hospital for seven years. I did DBT to help with my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder and it drastically changed my life. I can feel big emotions now and not have them take over and can recognize what emotion it is that I’m experiencing. My life isn’t perfect today but I’m continually working to keep improving myself and I have made tremendous strides.